Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Hard Things

I don’t know why it is so hard for me to get the right words out of my mouth lately.  I start out and intend to say something and they get slightly off and never get back to the original point.  Take Sunday for instance, in Relief Society we were talking about Joseph Smith mostly, but there was a question in the back of the manual about how Heavenly Father does not call the qualified he qualifies the called.  Well, I totally feel that a lot.  I think my comment got off cause I mentioned there are some days I don’t want to be the Relief Society President.  Well, some days that may be because I am being lazy but I have had some days lately that it is because I don’t know if I can do what I have to do that day.  Its much easier being the chaplains wife and letting my husband help people through hard times than doing it myself.

Sometimes things also feel overwhelming.  One reason we took the week off from school last week.  And, I really didn’t get to declutter the whole house.  I did a good bit though.  I’m hoping to squeeze in more here and there.  My bedroom is mostly whats left and its probably the worst cause I leave it for last in everything because I know I don’t let anyone back there but us!  Soon, though, gotta make sure Luke is around for it though, at least half the clutter is his!  Hmmm, see already off topic.  I’m sure this is a learning experience of how to juggle lots.  My brain feels so forgetful though.  This too shall pass.  I know we have been blessed in that when I need to be able to visit someone or do something, Luke is available to watch the kids and then when he is super busy things are a little calmer on my front. 


Frances said...

Ah Carla! That breaks my heart to read. Wish I could be there to give you relief and play with your kiddos. We just love you guys and miss you. It was so great relaxing with you all over Christmas. I think it's so true that Heavenly Father prepares the chosen. I was thinking about that a lot when I read through that lesson. If we're doing His work, we're able to receive His help. Hang in there!!

Opp Family said...

I feel for you! I had no idea that you got promoted to president (wink). Bless your heart! Just being the RS president at Ricks, it was hard for me - blessings yes, but hard and that was a student ward with a time limit. I was so glad when that year was up! I can't imagine the stress with having to deal with the complexities of a family ward - yikes! Don't be too hard on yourself, just remember your cousin loves you!!! When you have a free moment (haha!) give me a call, I would love to catch up!